All together...( album and thoughts)
This will, probably, by the most difficult chapter of my little " book
" because it really looks more like a book than a "regular" webpage...Well,this
is part because my mother told me once that she would have liked to write
a book about our doggies as members of our family.She never treated them
as "pets".they never were considered "living toys"...they simply were
"family",some kind of siblings for my daughter and
me...here she is
"Czarina"Rita with my daughter,in 1998.I am so proud of my daughter,for
everything she achieved in her life and for her deep love and respect for
animals.And I have to thank my mother for helping me raising my child in
a respectfull and loving home.My mother loved us all, with the most sincere
and deep love,humanly possible.She envelloped those little beings with so
much warmth,compassion and respect that I cannot wonder why she was so devasteted
after their departure.She never considered herselve superior to any other
living creature because the life itself had a divine meaning for her.This
is also probably why we couldn't tand the idea of living our dogs behind
.So, they shared everything with us,never lacking their meals and always
sleeping securely in an warm place,with us,always together...in all the
circumstances of our lifes....here they are,A&T in 1990 in Switzerland..then
playing together..it's like a sermon they somehoe made to one
another....until.....do as part....and they really ment
it.(
This
is me with our "pack" in The Red Cross Camp in Lausanne.)They never gave
us any sign of unhappiness because we don't have a car,or don't spend the
winters on a tropical island...the unity of our family (pack) was
essential...some food...a warm place to sleep...and everybody around...
I think we are not strong enough to learn from them...
They try
to teach us so many things but it looks like we simply believe we,as humans
know everything.Well maybe that's why there are so many pets...somehow,some
of them can pass on the "message"...As I said,these little "monsters"...had
unlimited access in our home...but of corse,they prefered spots from where
they could watch evey movement...especially what was going on in the
kitchen...so,in order to satisfy them there were cussions
everywhere...
what
did I just tell you..."observation towers " everywhere.
And that
little fellow had to investigate any object you had in your hands,and he
also had to be in all the pictures....so he had to be part of Rita's
portrait....Well,I wrote a lot about going places with them,in Romania and
in Switzerland...travelling with them...We really did....by train....but
not in dogcarriers....no,no,no.In Romania as well as in all other European
countries,including Russia,dogs are allowed in trains without any restriction
but to buy a 1/2 price ticket for a big size dog and of corse to make sure
that your pet doesn't create problems....simple....Well,it was a different
story to cross the Atlantic ocean.We had to buy dogcarriers for them,because
there was already another little dog booked for the cabin on our flight and
we didn't want to separate them.Here there are,our material belongings when
we came to Canada. I would like to thank The SwissAirCompany for the good
shape we found our dogs when we arrived at Pearson Airport in
Toronto,Nov.1993.
The pilot
himself assured us that in their compartment for animals,there is light,heat
and good air,just like in the passengers cabin.He told us that nobody ever
complaint about The Swissair,regarding the wellbeing of dogs.And he was right.We
found them at the airport,a bit anxious of corse and excited but they both
were OK.Thanks.There I am with litlle darlings in Lausanne and at the right,with
the same "pumpkins" in Toronto.Before closing this chapter I will introduce
you my
mother,Emilia Dana,a former
actress in a Romanian theater.This very special human being who taught us
love and respect and so many,many other wonderful things.Here she is,with
me an our little dogs,sometimes in 1998
After the the little ones passed away,our place looked so empty,so quiet,We
didn't know what to do with so much time...there were no dogmeals to cook,no
more checking the list of drugs Toto had to take at specific hours...no more
barking...just some pawprints on the snow on the balcony...We decided to
take a "vacation' from having pets.We thought we could enjoy more ' freedom
of movement" because we did do some sacrifice in or lifes,for their sake...and
we struggled to live,by ourselves,so to speek...In the early summer my mother
told me that she really would like another little,very little dog,with a
completely different look,but "somebody" to take care of...and I just
said..."wait for a while,maybe we'll move and in another place will be easier
to deal with the presence of a another dog".simply because our place was
so small...we've seen each other all the time,their presence was
everywhere...Friday,
July the 20th ,in the morning,she told me that she had a "vision" of a little
beige,curly dog,sitting on her sofa and she asked him "Who sent you here
? Aiki and Toto?" and he moved his head as saying "Yes.""So, what do you
want me to do ? To pet you ??" and when she approached him he dissipated
in the thin air...She was very touched by this...And she insisted that we
adopt a little dog...and again I said,OK,lets just wait for a little
while...Saturday,July 21, 6am, six months after Aiki,my beloved mother died
of a massive heart attac....no comments.
My daughter and I were devasteted.The "lightning" stroke us again.There are no words to explain the unexplainable.We stood still in the middle of our livingroom and we simply could get it.We were in complete disbelieve and denial.It was like we just landed on a desert planet with nobody to comfort us...nobody...Sometime,in August,we were watching Dr.Stanley Coren "Good Dog" broadcast...and there was a black puppy pug...and then my daughter,with tears in her eyes told me : "I wonder if that was the only love we were capable of?I'm sure that none of them will mind if we would rescue a dog in need." I said OK this time.And that's how and why Princess BIBI,a little female Pomeranian came in our lifes,August the 11,2001.